A journey to my inner Dork

The inspiration for this blog came from a thought I had earlier about how I feel lost and unsure about my future. Now, that really is a strange thing for me. Not that I've ever had my life mapped out and sure, not even close.

Now go with me for a second. I must explain something to you so you'll understand my whole point, if I have one. I am, yeah, obsessed with superheroes. Love them. Want to be one. X-Men, Batman*, Spiderman**, Superman, NBC's Heroes and a bunch of others. I've always thought that if I were a superhero, I'd be one of two things--or a combination if they are possible. An Empath or a mind reader. It's true. I feel that I relate really really well with people. I can understand what they are feeling, almost to the point that I can read their mind--not in words, but understanding. So, probably more of an empath than anything.. (but it'd be cool to calm people by speaking to them in their minds, or drive them insane, by locking them inside their mind [i.e. Matt's dad from Heroes]).
Recently, I was at my friend Leslie's house. We've known each other a long time and are best friends. We took a 4 mile walk with her dog and when we returned to her home, she expressed how she would like to shower. When we got inside, her mother had been looking for her and was a little worried since she didn't know we were taking that long of a walk. Her mom had made us slurpees and we sat at the table eating them. I was taking forever to eat mine. It was really cold. Leslie seemed anxious. A little overly anxious.
(**dork alert**) Now let me just say that because I feel things and understand them, almost to an unhuman level, doesn't mean I know how to handle situations, that would come with practice as I develop my superhero awesomeness.
Eventually I found an acceptable stopping point in the conversation to get up and go home. Speaking with Leslie later, I found she was anxious to see if her mom was going to be upset with her in private about taking the dog for so long with out telling her. (She didn't get in trouble, she's a grown adult, but we all know our parents still have a hold on us.) I knew there was more to it than just wanting to take a shower.

So that's the little deviation I took to get to my point. Being unsure about my future, even though I have general plans and dreams, is strange because it isn't something I can feel out like a persons emotions and understand where they are going. It is me that I have to understand in order know where my future lies.


*Batman, while not having superhero powers, just being a man with a dream and incredible ambition, is still considered a great superhero.
**Spiderman of the comics and the movies. If you did not know, in the comics he used his science nerdiness to create his spider web, but he still had spidey sense and super strength. Although his personal life is a mess, he's a cool superhero.